By Jacqui Jacoby
When I first became a Christian, life was amazing. I woke up every day feeling energized and ready to spread God’s Word.
I soon realized that faith is not always like this. I fell to temptations I had never faced before, I stopped reading my Bible consistently, and I felt torn between the world and the Kingdom.
As time went on, I thought, “How can I get back to how things were?” Like Eve, life was not the same when I took a bite of the apple we call sin. A world of temptation opened up for me, and my life became a battle between the woman I was and the woman I knew I could be in Christ.
I found myself doubting God, doubting myself, feeling shame and condemnation, and feeling far apart from my Jesus, who gave everything to me.
If you are in this situation, I’m here to tell you that it is normal and it is okay to feel this way. Don’t get me wrong, living in sin is not okay. But you are human and not every moment of your life is going to be as sweet and carefree as the moment you first gave your heart to Jesus.
Have you ever heard the term “slow season”? Maybe you’re mourning a loss, struggling with money, fighting off temptation, or just feeling discouraged. More than anything, you don’t feel the fire that you know you’ve felt before with Christ. This is normal. Your enemy, the devil, wants you to feel alone in this slow season, but I’m here to tell you that every other Christian knows how you feel. You are not alone, and you are not stuck.
Psalm 13 was written thousands of years ago, yet David felt the same way that you do now. After crying out to God about feeling distant, he says, “But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me” (Psalm 13:5-6). God is there, even when you can’t feel His presence.
You are going through a season. Seasons change. It’s not that a better season awaits. Rather, every season has its richness. The winter can be bitter cold, inconvenient, and uncomfortable, but it also gives us snow angels, hot cocoa, and gathering by a fire. Look for the richness in your season. I promise you, God will use this season to show you what He couldn’t show you in any other season of your life.
If you’re in a slow season,
- Reflect on what God is teaching you.
- Be honest with God and with your community; tell them that you’re feeling distant.
Life is messy, but it’s beautiful with Jesus. Walk with Him through the addiction, through the depression, through the doubts. Walk with Him through life.